Some Things I Learnt In The Last Two Years

Here are just some of the things I learnt in the last two years of my life which were also the worst two years of my life.

People Believe Anything

I found out through my own experience that people believe complete rubbish and stupid things and do not even question it. I do struggle to comprehend how stupid some people are. I had people believing that they were my fantasy characters and that I was writing my stories about them and that I was in love with them. They even believed that by looking at me I would write for them, by acting angry and sad I would write for them - and fall in love with them – plain stupid!!

People Are Just Sick In The Head

I had my mother critically ill and then she died. I had been caring for her and trying to keep a full time job. I struggled. I had people bullying me, staring at me, lying about me and playing games with me the whole time while I was struggling like crazy and I nearly killed myself because of them. None said sorry – how can people be so cruel to anyone, even worse they did this to me who has a disability – autism.

People Believe Anyone

People believe gossip and never question the truth. They believe lies and nasty lies at that – it happened to me. Cute girls with sweet voices convinced people to believe terrible things about me and spread their lies around about me and I did nothing wrong to them at all. Men fell for one of the girls lies, obviously pervert type characters who follow their sexual organ and not there brains. Also clearly people trust people more if they speak the same language as them like polish rather than English.

Lies Spread

People go around lying and others believe the lies and it spreads no matter the consequences – people should learn to keep their mouths shut. Lies cause trouble and people's lies could have ended up with me dead. People who lie about others are sad about their own lives and find comfort in causing other people problems so they feel better about their own sad lives.

You Can't Trust Anyone

I certainly learned that you just can't trust anyone. I thought some people were friends and they turned on me and betrayed me and lied about me. I trusted them and yet that backfired massively. They caused me lots of problems which again could have lead to my death.

The Vulgar Talking People Are The Perverted Ones

A guy I had known years always talking about shagging and talked dirty but I never thought he was a pervert, I thought it was all talk until he told me all about his perverted fantasy and how he plays with himself about all his workmates. The dirty talking ones are the perverts. Okay those who make light hearted dirty jokes are not a problem but those who are not joking are the bad guys! Be Warned!!

Friends And Workmates Can Never Be Trusted

I was friends/ housemates with someone for years and I trusted her and yet she was making me poorly everyday and then went off chasing after under eighteen year old kids.

I had work friends who I shared personal things too, only for them to go around lying about me and spreading malicious gossip!

You can never trust your friends!

People Don't Care About People With Disability's

I am autistic and yet people bullied me because of it, played games with me, lied about me and showed a huge lack of respect. People take the piss out of disabled people and really don't care that they do that!

Having One Of Your Parents Die

Is one of the worst experiences you can have and the grief and how hard it hits you and how it stays with you is so testing and hard to recover from.

Losing A Pet Is Hard To Take

I lost my mums dog because of my mums health and because I was so attached to the dog it hurt a lot when the dog was taken away from me because it was given to someone else in my mums will. I never thought I would never see the dog again when my mum died.

Blood Pressure Can Kill You Easily

I could have died as unknowingly my blood pressure had risen to dangerous levels and got to the stage of making me dizzy, sick, gave me high pitch ringing in my ears, blurry vision and I was light headed and I could barely function, not even walk far at one stage. Always best to keep a good check on your health.

Its Cool To Get An Eyesight Test

I kept putting it off again and again and when I did at last get it done I enjoyed it and now I have some nice reading glasses and I can see things again!! It felt like a miracle!!

Losing Social Media Is Cool

Its proven that social media is bad for your mental heath and I decided to quit it all and I don't miss it one bit(Apart from spamming my site on it!) I was spending way too much time looking at random shit that was fake, false, pointless and rubbish so its good I am away from it all. Life is far better when you are free from crazy peoples influences – and yes I did say crazy!

If You Are Successful People Try And Bring You Down

I was very popular on social media, especially YouTube, Blogging and Tik-Tok. I was bullied for it and ended up deleting it all because people were jealous about how much I was liked. People don't like it when you do better than them and do anything to destroy a person and I am just happy that I did not destroy myself because of them. And now here I am back again doing this site!!

Personality Disorders

I encountered a crazy bitch and could not at first understand what was wrong with her until I did some research and all the evidence points to her having some kind of personality disorder. This explains her jealousy, how she covers herself in makeup, does anything to get sympathy from people – including lying and how she likes attention and is very suggestible. I feel sorry for her and have posted this before hoping she would seek help for it but you can't help someone who won't help themselves.

Gaze Detection

I learnt about how from a distance your brain has this ability to watch to see if anyone is looking at you without you looking at them. If someone is watching you your brain alerts you and shift your focus towards that person. Its part of the fight or flight responses.

Anyway there is some stuff for you to ponder, thanks for reading!