Subdued And The Desolation

Black was the sky, the night, I go.

All was peaceful, balanced, until it hit home.

I reached out, work, and there it was.

Beauty was looking at me and I was gone.

Black is my heart, broken, she made it so.

All was peaceful, balanced, I am always alone.

I tried so hard, willpower, please take it away.

I try not to see her each and every day.

Falling into this subdued way, desolation,

once more came my way.

Losing to this hurt and pain, I wish,

it would all just go away.

Suffocated, confused and subdued, desolation,

yet again destroys my mood.

Losing to this loss and rejection, empty, tears

fall, I fall and I am subdued.

She is so beautiful, magical, energy, aura, a presence I feel

She is so much like heaven, amazing and I know what I feel is so real.

Stop, I Stop.

Emotions, Stop!

Cant move, have to Stop!

All I did was to feel, to care, to adore, to dream of her love.

All I was given, hate, lies, punishment, stares and silence.

Stop, I Stop.

Emotions, Stop!

Cant move, have to Stop!

Living always this subdued way, desolation,

forever each and ever day.

Suffering, this heartbreak and pain, I wish,

it would all just go away.

Suffocated, can’t think, confused and subdued, desolation,

as always destroys my mood.

Shattered, this punishment, empty, tears

fall, lost, all alone and I am subdued, always subdued.