There Is Only One

I have had a rough few years and things have changed and life is looking a lot better than what it was before.

My Confidence Is Good

Right now I feel so much more confidence doing what the fuck I want and not worrying about what other people think. Do I care if stupid people go around lying about me and making stuff up like silly children playing games! No I do not! I just don't give a shit about nasty stupid people. I am rocking and rolling and enjoying myself now without the worries of that cloud they put over me with all the lies, bullshit and staring of me. Never again will I allow stupid people to bring me down! They could have killed me with how they were making me feel. Am done giving a shit about the nasty lies spread around about me. As far as I am concerned they can go and jump off the Humber Bridge as long as they don't disturb the wildlife and contaminate the area. I am free to do what I want. Hey ye know there is only one and that's me and taking care of myself is the main priority right now.

Changes

I will be going through another good but stressful time in the near future. I will be leaving my childhood home and I know moving home is a stressful thing as I have done this twice in the last few years. I can't wait to be honest though as I am exited to be moving. Living in my mum's house which is half mine now will always feel like my mum's house and I have never lived in a home that was truly mine. Mums house has so many memories and I feel that perhaps leaving will allow me to move on and in a more positive way. I am changing and when mum died that was the first time that I was having to live alone without anybody. Now I can't really see me living with anyone again. I know I am older now and taking care of my health is important and I know that I need to put myself first now. I have cared for mum for a lot of years and had to care for the women I was living with before too because she was useless but now it's all about taking care of myself.

I don't think I could ever be in a relationship again as I just don't need to be thinking and caring about anyone but myself. I did like someone back in November 2022 and I thought she liked me but it turned out she just liked staring at me. So much added up for me to think she liked me and I am 100% sure we would have made a good couple. Why stare at someone all the time if your not going to make some kind of contact with that person? Okay fair enough I've worked out that I do the same kind of thing because I'm autistic and I notice lots of things, worse when I am bored and fed up. I look around a lot so perhaps she was just staring because she's bored and maybe autistic like me? Either way I still think we would have made a good couple and I don't know any other people I could say the same about. So yeah I am just not wanting a relationship at all, perhaps I will try and find a friend or something but no worries I am happy enough alone.

My New Online Identity

So yeah my EclipseAD76 identity is my new online name that goes with me now. From gaming to social media it's my name. I don't do social media in any real way now and post AI images and not anything about myself or my family. I like and follow anyone and anything I want as long as I don't know them in real life.(Apart from my grown up children.) I keep social media away from my real life and treat it as a fantasy playground where I can do as I please. After using social media for a lot of years you eventually realise how stupid you are believing people are friends with you when you barely spend time with them. The people from work proved how unfriendly they were when mum died and you eventually realise that nobody cares about anybody no matter how hard a time someone is having. No friends of mine.

So yeah EclipseAD76 is my online identity but not the real me and really just a fantasy version of myself. None of my social media accounts are important to me as is anybody I work with or follow online. The only people who matter is my family.

Conclusion

So yeah There Is Only One and that is me and I will take care of myself, do what is best for myself, be positive about my changes and embrace my new online identity and enjoy myself.