What's A Man Suppossed To Do?

This whole getting older thing and my new found freedom has left me all a bit lost and I am left with the question what's a man suppossed to do?

Organised

When I had been living with my ex housemate and caring for my mother and children everything felt so chaotic and that left me with so little time and yet now I only have myself to look after I am so much more organised and have so much more time. All it took was for myself to be left to organise things rather than having my mother and the ex housemate give orders and cause chaos - sorry mum. Now because I am in control my life has become cleaner, simpler and easier to manage. It's funny how people you interact with can cause more stress and unnecessary chaos for you without you realising and it's only when you are left alone that you realise.

This Extra Time

I am on my second trip to Gainsborough and at a different cafe because I honestly was stuck for things to do. I went out with my two children yesterday but today i am once more all on my lonesome. So what's a man suppossed to do? Well I didn't know what to do and so i decided to write this post. Having all this extra times brings space and time that I would not normally have. It's taken me a while to get used to it to be honest. It can give me spells of boredom and so I need to keep myself busy and doing something, that's why I do this site.

My Usual And New Activities.

I used to game mostly and watch TV/ Movies/ Catch-Up before and play my guitar when I was with the ex housemate. When I moved in with my mother who was battling cancer of course I stopped playing my guitar because she would not have wanted the noise. I was left with not much time in-between caring for my mum and working. Now with the extra time now that I am away from the ex housemate and because my mother died i have added other activities. I write more, read books, game more, watch more movies, play my guitar, run my site, go for long walks and do more housework than i would normally would. The only problem is that I am still finding so much extra time and space to fill in and often get bored with everything and I am still left with that question: What's a man suppossed to do?

The Advice

The Advice I am given by people is really boring, people say join a club, read more, write more and get out more and go for a holiday. But it's all boring. How many times can I go to a cafe and write or walk and walk around and as for a holiday - what's the fun in having a holiday without going with someone? And i know i would struggle alone as I am autistic and find new situations and places difficult to deal with. I would require someone with me as a fact. I really am stuck in this solo experience but at least I am not stressed and struggling like I was with the ex housemate and caring for my mother. I am so much more organised which is great! I miss mum not been here to go out with and spend time with though and that lack of conversation I had with my mum is a massive loss.

The Single Me

I am a lot better off both mentally, physically and financially been single. I have been single for eleven years but even living with the ex housemate and my mum put a massive drain on my finances. Now I am just paying for myself and it's a lot better.

I miss not having someone to share my life with and nothing is the same anymore. I spend more time sharing my life with this site than any real person. I do wonder if I should start a new search for someone and re-join dating sites, perhaps that would be something else to do at least. I am not worried about finding anyone at all though as I most certainly do not want to end up in a bad place again like I was with my ex housemate. This is just an idea rejoining the dating world, I will have a think about it. Perhaps finding a friend or a date would at least add something to my life in some kind of way?